Friends are forever

I can't believe the tv show "Friends" went off the air tonight. At least I'm glad to see that Ross and Rachel ended up together.I went to Metharbs for ice cream with Kim tonight. She's such an awesome person. She helped me feel better than I felt earlier today. I can't believe I shed a couple tears in front of Kim and Phoebe this afternoon. Normally I'm good at hiding my feelings well. I guess I must feel pretty strongly about Craig for this to have happened!Anyways, I would have thought that Craig would have been home by now. I hung out with him in the library for a couple hours tonight but I left around 6pm or so and he stayed there with some others. I hope that he's ok. I mean I know he had told me that he had gotten in 2 car accidents up in Newburyport on his way home from school within the past couple months and they all happened at night when it was dark out. That area where the train station is is wicked dark cuz its poorly lit. I hope he's ok. I mean I'm sure he's ok....I just worry too much I guess.I wish I knew what I did to cause Craig to not like me all of a sudden. I mean I thought he really liked me based on what he had said in his live journal and all. He's soooooo awesome and I can't think of anyone I've ever had so much hanging out with in a long time. He's another one who can put a smile on my face when I feel miserable. :)I really feel lonely a lot. Craig makes me smile. He makes it worthwhile to wake up and go to school. I think if he weren't there I would have dropped out by now. This term is especially hard and plus there's the added stress of not getting to see Lloyd as much as we used to cuz of all my stuff and his job's fucked up hours that change from day to day.I wish I knew how I could win Craig's heart cuz I've realized that he is who I'd like to be with. But I certainly don't want to do anything rash and break up with Lloyd before I know if I could have a chance with Craig because I am so afraid of going through life alone.Life sucks when you feel like you're alone in the world.